Something to lift the mood..
The King Singers..with 'Honey Pie'.ENJOY!!!
Sunday, April 29, 2007
U know, if you think that I'm NOT appreciative of your help, You are so Wrong. I'm sorry if I didn't get the chance to Thank you. I am Thankful really. If it isn't for your help I wouldn't have someone to help me improve, but things just didn't go well. The current happenings in the club just turns me off. I'm beginning to feel uncomfortable. I can't speak to the usual people like I used to anymore. You think I'm happy? I'm not somebody who take things for granted just so that I get the benefits, but apparently other people does that, or maybe even u that u didn't even realise. I feel totally out. I DO NOT want to be Mistaken for anything again. If u people want to frame me, spoil my reputation, u better think twice. The truth will speak itself. God knows. I dunno why I must go through this again. The club that I am most attached to, that I am closest to, and the great people suddenly make me feel like a stranger. It just hurts the most the the people closest to you hurt you.
|*29th April'07*|
Performance Day
Alarm went off at 9am, but only managed to get out of bed at 9:30am. Wake up so early on a Saturday morning to pack before going to UCC, but.. I forgot my BELT.. and I need belt for tt pair of jeans. =.= Met the guys at cck, but they're late! and I thought I was late.. =.- Had lunch, but accidents happen, good thing it didn't spill all over me.. My day wasn't going very well.. so had quite an attitude. Actually thought of going back home to get my belt but it'll cost quite some time, and we're already late, but wx lend me his belt instead.. gee.. just to hold me jeans can.. Things were quite rush at UCC.. I don't know why. Plus the last minute runs for A ca just made us more nervous.. and I think I started to go sharp again.. and we began to rush. I didn't have time to warm up, coz so many pple around, and my voice was kinda stuck. Sang a bit only. The gerls were doing make up. I did mine 1st before having dinner, but after seeing the food I decided not to eat. Spicy food.. nono.. I'm loosing my voice soon. Ate a piece of bread with chicken mayo.
I wasn't nervous before A ca item ok... I was just worried about going off coz just nice my voice is sorta stuck. The rest were nervous behind the curtains.. Chill.. be focus.. I'm quite used to singing in a group.. wx u also la.. still say me.. only can't tell by looking only loh.. hahaha.. I was quite disappointed and irritated when we're not allowed to go out during interval. 2nd half, the chinese songs, I knew I went sharp. I dunno if its just me. Ahh.. =.=
Finale..tried to hold back my laughter and sing.. haha.. Ohh.. I was super shock when they gave joe the Doraemon soft toy.. and they played the song.. hahaha!!!
After performance, changed and left, hmm..nearly forgot to take my shoes..=.= Wanted to join the nps peeps for supper, but dunno y i just felt abit out, not entirely becoz of it but also i'll be trying to fit myself into a grp, so left w the choir peeps. 1st time i decided not to join nps pple..hmm.. in the end its the 3 of us again.. choir pple went to town.. I'm too dead for town. Had sundae and pie at macs.. den go home.. and we actaully missed the last bus.. so took a bus to np and decided to cab home.. thnx for the ride..
I guess I was only 60% awake throughout, coz I dun really remember what I said.
Alarm went off at 9am, but only managed to get out of bed at 9:30am. Wake up so early on a Saturday morning to pack before going to UCC, but.. I forgot my BELT.. and I need belt for tt pair of jeans. =.= Met the guys at cck, but they're late! and I thought I was late.. =.- Had lunch, but accidents happen, good thing it didn't spill all over me.. My day wasn't going very well.. so had quite an attitude. Actually thought of going back home to get my belt but it'll cost quite some time, and we're already late, but wx lend me his belt instead.. gee.. just to hold me jeans can.. Things were quite rush at UCC.. I don't know why. Plus the last minute runs for A ca just made us more nervous.. and I think I started to go sharp again.. and we began to rush. I didn't have time to warm up, coz so many pple around, and my voice was kinda stuck. Sang a bit only. The gerls were doing make up. I did mine 1st before having dinner, but after seeing the food I decided not to eat. Spicy food.. nono.. I'm loosing my voice soon. Ate a piece of bread with chicken mayo.
I wasn't nervous before A ca item ok... I was just worried about going off coz just nice my voice is sorta stuck. The rest were nervous behind the curtains.. Chill.. be focus.. I'm quite used to singing in a group.. wx u also la.. still say me.. only can't tell by looking only loh.. hahaha.. I was quite disappointed and irritated when we're not allowed to go out during interval. 2nd half, the chinese songs, I knew I went sharp. I dunno if its just me. Ahh.. =.=
Finale..tried to hold back my laughter and sing.. haha.. Ohh.. I was super shock when they gave joe the Doraemon soft toy.. and they played the song.. hahaha!!!
After performance, changed and left, hmm..nearly forgot to take my shoes..=.= Wanted to join the nps peeps for supper, but dunno y i just felt abit out, not entirely becoz of it but also i'll be trying to fit myself into a grp, so left w the choir peeps. 1st time i decided not to join nps pple..hmm.. in the end its the 3 of us again.. choir pple went to town.. I'm too dead for town. Had sundae and pie at macs.. den go home.. and we actaully missed the last bus.. so took a bus to np and decided to cab home.. thnx for the ride..
I guess I was only 60% awake throughout, coz I dun really remember what I said.
|*29th April'07*|
Continuing from the previous post...
Friday (Long Day)
It's even week, so I had my 1st Floristry class. I'm beginning to feel the tiredness, kept stoning in the morning, and came late to class, lucky they were doing gardening. The moment I went to the lab, Eric(TSO) asked me if I brought covered shoes(coz I was wearing slippers), I said yea its in my bag. I brought a dress shoe instead of sneakers, my bag no space la. haha.. coz I have Full dress rehearsal in UCC later in the evening(if u noe wad i mean). Today is hectic la.. rushing from place to place. 1st Floristry class ended 1 hr later, and my fren and I rushed to canteen 3 to meet our fren for lunch and it was drizzling and we're holding a pot of flower we arranged in class. My main fern actually fell off on the way..=.= called 1 of the guys to help me get another fern, haha..=x and ohhhhh.. They helped me put my labcoat in the lab locker, but I forgot to take out my contact lense case... how silly is tt.. haha.. (I left it in the coat pocket as it was wet after i wore it during toliet break.)
Finance class from 2pm-6pm but it ended at 5pm, So Glad. Well, the content ain't that great, not what I expected. The lecturer, adjunct too, Ok la... but she brags. I know u're proud but no point bragging...... and the things she say at times just make me fill like arguing back la.. well, my fren did la.. =.= wx smsed me since before lunch, didn't recieve it until end of floristry coz lab has no signal. Finance wasn't that interesting so sms in class la.. well, I dun usually do tt kays. Suprisingly class ended at 5pm, and I can take my time to have dinner before going to UCC. wx just end class too so we decided to meet at Clementi macs. I didn't 1 to haf macs for dinner, but since its the fastest option, i gave in la.. lols.. and hmmm.. weird things happen, hai..sec sch kids..=.=
Made our way to UCC, they were doing random runs, basically A ca only sang during the last hour. =\ I had time to do some warm ups, actually the longest I have done myself before A ca songs. I was alone in the dressing room that's why. I knoe the dancers heard me.. hmm.. Hope I didn't sound bad..=X Went for supper with the 2 guys.. i didn't eat or drink, save money is 1 thing, tired is another.. haha.. matt made us take the train home...when we haf direct bus home..
Friday (Long Day)
It's even week, so I had my 1st Floristry class. I'm beginning to feel the tiredness, kept stoning in the morning, and came late to class, lucky they were doing gardening. The moment I went to the lab, Eric(TSO) asked me if I brought covered shoes(coz I was wearing slippers), I said yea its in my bag. I brought a dress shoe instead of sneakers, my bag no space la. haha.. coz I have Full dress rehearsal in UCC later in the evening(if u noe wad i mean). Today is hectic la.. rushing from place to place. 1st Floristry class ended 1 hr later, and my fren and I rushed to canteen 3 to meet our fren for lunch and it was drizzling and we're holding a pot of flower we arranged in class. My main fern actually fell off on the way..=.= called 1 of the guys to help me get another fern, haha..=x and ohhhhh.. They helped me put my labcoat in the lab locker, but I forgot to take out my contact lense case... how silly is tt.. haha.. (I left it in the coat pocket as it was wet after i wore it during toliet break.)
Finance class from 2pm-6pm but it ended at 5pm, So Glad. Well, the content ain't that great, not what I expected. The lecturer, adjunct too, Ok la... but she brags. I know u're proud but no point bragging...... and the things she say at times just make me fill like arguing back la.. well, my fren did la.. =.= wx smsed me since before lunch, didn't recieve it until end of floristry coz lab has no signal. Finance wasn't that interesting so sms in class la.. well, I dun usually do tt kays. Suprisingly class ended at 5pm, and I can take my time to have dinner before going to UCC. wx just end class too so we decided to meet at Clementi macs. I didn't 1 to haf macs for dinner, but since its the fastest option, i gave in la.. lols.. and hmmm.. weird things happen, hai..sec sch kids..=.=
Made our way to UCC, they were doing random runs, basically A ca only sang during the last hour. =\ I had time to do some warm ups, actually the longest I have done myself before A ca songs. I was alone in the dressing room that's why. I knoe the dancers heard me.. hmm.. Hope I didn't sound bad..=X Went for supper with the 2 guys.. i didn't eat or drink, save money is 1 thing, tired is another.. haha.. matt made us take the train home...when we haf direct bus home..
|*29th April'07*|
Many Many things to write.. hmm let's see...
This whole week, very busy, so after yesterday, I'm sort of dead. Had Practice and rehearsal from Monday to Saturday excluding Thursday. Wao.. Sing sing and sing, and finally memorised the words.
Monday
Had usual IS class, went to the music room to practice before going for lesson, quite surprised that 1 of the 2 ke pple allow me to stay for a few more minutes. Gained another new book, the bag of books is heavier than my laptop + adapter. Returned to school in a hurry, for full dress rehearsal, only had a ramly's burger for dinner. A ca sang, heard that it was not bad. Had some confusion with the positioning though.. Went home around 11..
Tuesday
No class, but came to do FYP, and so unfortunate to see tis new adjunct lecturer that turns me off. No wonder I made a mistake and had to redo my stock solution. =.= Went to NPS clubhse, slack, pack food up to eat with bel and sam. Played Cello a while, den took my time and made my way to LT 26. Well, since performance is on Sat so I went for rehearsal, as they need to do some adjustments with the A ca pple. Prac till 10, went to macs at Bpp w the 2 guys. Didn't expect to have so much laughter. Ok, they made me laugh throughout, since we got our food. Don't remember why, and they tried imitating and do variations of my laughter..but I just can't stop. =\
Wednesday
The aftermath of a hectic schedule is taking its toll on me. Pulled myself up for 8am class. Lecture ended early, so went to the lab for FYP, but the freak lady is there and sorta chased us out, TSO moved us to a neighbouring lab. Well, You are rude. Seeing the innocent students get scolded by you for nothing.. sigh..
Did sketches and drawing for practical, not bad, I can draw if I want to.
Didn't have proper dinner, coz I snacked during practical, so kinda full. But ate 2 hmm.. something like pancakes(red bean + chocolate), just to fill up my stomach. Went for Full dress rehearsal, took my time too. A ca sang, and hmm.. some parts weren't great. Stress is showing itself. I suppose some pple dun understand that you have to be independent while singing A capella, that means knowing ur part extremely well and not depend on others for notes, except that we hafta look at each other for pulse and move with it. We're too tired for Macs, so we went home.
Thursday
A break from singing. Went for practice, seriously that move was hmm.. didn't expect myself to do it, but after a few tries I made it. But, due to insufficient stretching of those muscles, my 2 legs are aching.. hahaha.. I needa move more. Move it Move it!
This whole week, very busy, so after yesterday, I'm sort of dead. Had Practice and rehearsal from Monday to Saturday excluding Thursday. Wao.. Sing sing and sing, and finally memorised the words.
Monday
Had usual IS class, went to the music room to practice before going for lesson, quite surprised that 1 of the 2 ke pple allow me to stay for a few more minutes. Gained another new book, the bag of books is heavier than my laptop + adapter. Returned to school in a hurry, for full dress rehearsal, only had a ramly's burger for dinner. A ca sang, heard that it was not bad. Had some confusion with the positioning though.. Went home around 11..
Tuesday
No class, but came to do FYP, and so unfortunate to see tis new adjunct lecturer that turns me off. No wonder I made a mistake and had to redo my stock solution. =.= Went to NPS clubhse, slack, pack food up to eat with bel and sam. Played Cello a while, den took my time and made my way to LT 26. Well, since performance is on Sat so I went for rehearsal, as they need to do some adjustments with the A ca pple. Prac till 10, went to macs at Bpp w the 2 guys. Didn't expect to have so much laughter. Ok, they made me laugh throughout, since we got our food. Don't remember why, and they tried imitating and do variations of my laughter..but I just can't stop. =\
Wednesday
The aftermath of a hectic schedule is taking its toll on me. Pulled myself up for 8am class. Lecture ended early, so went to the lab for FYP, but the freak lady is there and sorta chased us out, TSO moved us to a neighbouring lab. Well, You are rude. Seeing the innocent students get scolded by you for nothing.. sigh..
Did sketches and drawing for practical, not bad, I can draw if I want to.
Didn't have proper dinner, coz I snacked during practical, so kinda full. But ate 2 hmm.. something like pancakes(red bean + chocolate), just to fill up my stomach. Went for Full dress rehearsal, took my time too. A ca sang, and hmm.. some parts weren't great. Stress is showing itself. I suppose some pple dun understand that you have to be independent while singing A capella, that means knowing ur part extremely well and not depend on others for notes, except that we hafta look at each other for pulse and move with it. We're too tired for Macs, so we went home.
Thursday
A break from singing. Went for practice, seriously that move was hmm.. didn't expect myself to do it, but after a few tries I made it. But, due to insufficient stretching of those muscles, my 2 legs are aching.. hahaha.. I needa move more. Move it Move it!
Thursday, April 26, 2007
|*25th April' 07*|
I'm saying this, in a normal f/s manner.
Well, it is really great to begin happy, like hee haa everywhere with seriousness plus great communications and understandings. Well, of course these things start fine.. BUT, when it all starts to crumble, it's just fustrating. U feel lost. Like, what the heck happen, what caused it, and how to fix it. And it just gets worse when there's no response, not even a try or anything and let it just hang loose. Fustrating. Who even understands till this point.
As far as I am beginning to hate this kind of things happening over and over again, but the cycle just continues, so when is it gonna be stable, or rather that the above would NOT happen. It's great to have those beginnings but not when such things keep happening and obviously I wouldn't 1 another to be like this again. Its nice to feel this way once in a while but not when it drops from the peak all the way to the bottom and trying/or not even trying to find the way back up. I'm so not going to let this cycle repeat itself. Cannot afford to risk it. It's Too Much.
This Crumbles, I crumble too. Get it?!
Well, it is really great to begin happy, like hee haa everywhere with seriousness plus great communications and understandings. Well, of course these things start fine.. BUT, when it all starts to crumble, it's just fustrating. U feel lost. Like, what the heck happen, what caused it, and how to fix it. And it just gets worse when there's no response, not even a try or anything and let it just hang loose. Fustrating. Who even understands till this point.
As far as I am beginning to hate this kind of things happening over and over again, but the cycle just continues, so when is it gonna be stable, or rather that the above would NOT happen. It's great to have those beginnings but not when such things keep happening and obviously I wouldn't 1 another to be like this again. Its nice to feel this way once in a while but not when it drops from the peak all the way to the bottom and trying/or not even trying to find the way back up. I'm so not going to let this cycle repeat itself. Cannot afford to risk it. It's Too Much.
This Crumbles, I crumble too. Get it?!
Monday, April 23, 2007
|*23rd April'07*|
I've been very busy. haha.. Really. Since school started last monday, I have countless project groups and projects to be completed, and I think Week 4 has a few to complete. Rehearsals for Choir PP started last friday. Basically this whole week till performance day on Saturday I'll be having rehearsals. By right is Monday(Today),Wednesday and Friday plus another maybe on saturday, but tmr, there's another practice, so..Gonna be working on A capella songs, but I have NPS in which I need to practice cello.. really. How.. I'll think about it tmr.. hai..
I need time to practice piano too.. haha.. TIME..=.= This week is gonna be crazy. haha.. Monday has passed. Tuesday, FYP and practices, hahaha... no school but haf FYP.. v high.. Reach home, can knock already.. hahah.. no la.. I'm not burnt out yet.. There's still another round to go through this june.. That 1 confirm very high..
Jia You Everyone! =D whether for Grandioso II or Virtuoso IV. I also need to Jia You.. haha!=D
If only things could get better.....Please....
I need time to practice piano too.. haha.. TIME..=.= This week is gonna be crazy. haha.. Monday has passed. Tuesday, FYP and practices, hahaha... no school but haf FYP.. v high.. Reach home, can knock already.. hahah.. no la.. I'm not burnt out yet.. There's still another round to go through this june.. That 1 confirm very high..
Jia You Everyone! =D whether for Grandioso II or Virtuoso IV. I also need to Jia You.. haha!=D
If only things could get better.....Please....
Friday, April 20, 2007
|*20th April'07*|
Today is Friday.. end of the 1st week of school and yet I felt as if I've been schooling for nearly half a semester. I feel Tired.. I don't think I'm burnt out yet. Next week is gonna be a lot worse, even though I do not have class on Tuesday and Thursday. Cello and Piano, I really need to practice...arrrhhh... and I need to catch up on SLEEEPPP... I need some Fun..Really..
Projects projects..Research.. All I have this semester are PROJECTS and 1 paper. Good and bad but deadlines.. roar... Rehearsals and practices now.. and another 1 more time in June.. Its always been dreadful during the 1st few rehearsals..
I'm such a busy person. I was totally bored to death during the whole of March, and I just felt so restless and now I'm busy.. lols.. Well.. the gap is to the extreme.. =\
Nah.. I'm busy, don't get the wrong idea yea.. lols. And, I was right, I haf no time for those. Hahs.
Ohh.. I think next time i should say Female frens instead of Girl- friends.. =.=
and.. I can't seem to stop whacking pple.. I should.. pls stop.. lols
Projects projects..Research.. All I have this semester are PROJECTS and 1 paper. Good and bad but deadlines.. roar... Rehearsals and practices now.. and another 1 more time in June.. Its always been dreadful during the 1st few rehearsals..
I'm such a busy person. I was totally bored to death during the whole of March, and I just felt so restless and now I'm busy.. lols.. Well.. the gap is to the extreme.. =\
Nah.. I'm busy, don't get the wrong idea yea.. lols. And, I was right, I haf no time for those. Hahs.
Ohh.. I think next time i should say Female frens instead of Girl- friends.. =.=
and.. I can't seem to stop whacking pple.. I should.. pls stop.. lols
|*19th April' 07*|
Ok... Something is REALLY wrong with my TAGBOARD!!!! Don't tell me its Singnet problem again la.. I mean I can view other pple's tagboard, and they're using cbox too.. why is mine Forbidden..=.= That time due to singnet prob, I can't view my blog for nearly a month and now this... zzzZZZZzzzz... somehow it doesn't make any sense.. but 1 of my fren faced the same problem..
Sunday, April 15, 2007
|*15th April'07*|
Went to work today. I was asked to replace a friend who can't make it today. Heehee.. a few more bucks to my paycheck. Really broke now until I get my Paycheck.. aiyo.. but I can't help buying stuff when I go window shopping..=X There are quite a few thigns I need to get. Haha.. I guess I must continue to work la.. Hopefully I won't be that busy..
Since it's a Sunday, end at 7pm, so went to walk around citylink and marina square with my colleague. She is an implusive buyer.. hoho.. I didn't know.. =X hmm.. and me.. I got a new shirt. Well something which is not my usual kind of plain shirt. Nice, thanks to maby's recommendation. hehe.. Had fun today, an incident that is very funny, classic.. HAHA!!! =D
Sigh.. got gf already den even colder.. next time i go there also sian 1/2 lo.. tsk tsk tsk. no gud arh..
Since it's a Sunday, end at 7pm, so went to walk around citylink and marina square with my colleague. She is an implusive buyer.. hoho.. I didn't know.. =X hmm.. and me.. I got a new shirt. Well something which is not my usual kind of plain shirt. Nice, thanks to maby's recommendation. hehe.. Had fun today, an incident that is very funny, classic.. HAHA!!! =D
Sigh.. got gf already den even colder.. next time i go there also sian 1/2 lo.. tsk tsk tsk. no gud arh..
Saturday, April 14, 2007
|*14th April' 07*|
what's the pt.
nts.. s,d.. =\
I dun like the position I'm in right now. I can't do much.. can't help, its just so uncomfortable to see everything happening in front and yet cant do much..I wish I could do more.. sigh..=\
Hope its all Understood.
I guess all I can do now is only to continuing working hard and give my support at the back.. I can't be weak, must stay strong, u too.
It is dreading but still continue to stay strong yea. There are always people willing to give a hand.
A smile on the face does make a difference. thnx.=)
nts.. s,d.. =\
I dun like the position I'm in right now. I can't do much.. can't help, its just so uncomfortable to see everything happening in front and yet cant do much..I wish I could do more.. sigh..=\
Hope its all Understood.
I guess all I can do now is only to continuing working hard and give my support at the back.. I can't be weak, must stay strong, u too.
It is dreading but still continue to stay strong yea. There are always people willing to give a hand.
A smile on the face does make a difference. thnx.=)
Friday, April 13, 2007
|*13th April'07*|
Was really bored at work today. Not many customers to entertain. Plus I'm asked to use apple laptop to do a brochure, and I'm like so noob can. I tried Illustrator.. there's a template which I thought was useful, but I just can't seem to insert pictures.. and continue.. so was Stucked.. den.. no choice went to eat la.. dne come back.. my colleague she used iWeb and had a template plus some pics.. I was so glad la.. haha.. but it was a template for blog so there's this "abt me" at the top which can't be deleted.. lols.. wadeva.. but the end product was nice..hahazZ..
I kept thinking about the music lah.. aiyoo.. I was really tired.. just felt like sleeping coz chiong at night ma.. I got like tips from my teacher about arranging.. so I was sort of boosted.. and the result was not bad.. =) Plus I got the book from him just now.. so it'll help me along too.. BUT! my sibelius.. sigh.. can't safe coz not reg. and i tried, but the no. wrong. Why my frens can reg theirs but not me..and my printer.. just refuse to turn on.. and I cant print.. which just means that I can't turn off my laptop.. or esle I hafta write everything on paper..=.=" O.o
Might hafta arrange a medley instead.. well, shldn't be a prob if its something like tis current song.. hmm.. well my teacher said it'd be easier.. hmm.. hahaha.. Anyway, I am happy about the result of the arrangement although got a big gap to fill in btwn. hehs..
I know I'll tend to think a lot, not only certain things but everything for that matter. Sometimes it helps, but sometimes it'll kill. Why do I do that? Is it the insecurity that I have or what? But what's there to be insecure??? just1someimprovements. I guess that's y i'm hm.. hahs..Complicating.. x.X
You know.. I think that keeping things to myself is the best la.. everytime say out, either via blog or to some1 esle, is usually bad la.. pple either misinterpret or just dun understand at all..I think I just can't say, or it'll be bad la.. Being quiet is the best thing.. Although for me to keep mum about my thoughts is quite unbearable.. coz I feel the need to say it out.. but seldom pple understand.. so I think I shld try not to be bothered as long as I can take la..
I kept thinking about the music lah.. aiyoo.. I was really tired.. just felt like sleeping coz chiong at night ma.. I got like tips from my teacher about arranging.. so I was sort of boosted.. and the result was not bad.. =) Plus I got the book from him just now.. so it'll help me along too.. BUT! my sibelius.. sigh.. can't safe coz not reg. and i tried, but the no. wrong. Why my frens can reg theirs but not me..and my printer.. just refuse to turn on.. and I cant print.. which just means that I can't turn off my laptop.. or esle I hafta write everything on paper..=.=" O.o
Might hafta arrange a medley instead.. well, shldn't be a prob if its something like tis current song.. hmm.. well my teacher said it'd be easier.. hmm.. hahaha.. Anyway, I am happy about the result of the arrangement although got a big gap to fill in btwn. hehs..
I know I'll tend to think a lot, not only certain things but everything for that matter. Sometimes it helps, but sometimes it'll kill. Why do I do that? Is it the insecurity that I have or what? But what's there to be insecure??? just1someimprovements. I guess that's y i'm hm.. hahs..Complicating.. x.X
You know.. I think that keeping things to myself is the best la.. everytime say out, either via blog or to some1 esle, is usually bad la.. pple either misinterpret or just dun understand at all..I think I just can't say, or it'll be bad la.. Being quiet is the best thing.. Although for me to keep mum about my thoughts is quite unbearable.. coz I feel the need to say it out.. but seldom pple understand.. so I think I shld try not to be bothered as long as I can take la..
Monday, April 09, 2007
|*8th April' 07*|
Went to work as usual today. Sales wasn't as good as I thought. I thought it'll be more busy on sundays but well.. it's not even as busy as thursday. Quite bored, I think coz no one crap around with me bah.. Aiyo.. I served this customer, he was aquiring about sleeping bags, I was like yea hmm.. lucky I remember which type of sleeping bag can take what kind of temperature la.. *nie yi ba leng han lo" den ask me open up to show, i was like trying my best to do it asap, I think I was a bit jing zhang la.. lols.. nvr do b4.. blur blur.. dne the price, I didn't know the prices were like in the photo holder la.. den kept asking my manager.. who was on the phone, so pai seh.. =.= And I had a little trouble understanding the customer.. prolly his accent of something.. jing zhang.. lols.. and as usual, the chaco sandals..
After work went to meet barney for dinner, at 1st should be sheena and barney, but found out tt sheena got transferred so left barney lo.. haha.. Went to this eating place like a few blocks away. Never been there b4, although I'd been working for 3mths last year.. lols.. noob.. Talk as usual.. hahahazZ.. and den.. Barney.. WTH?!!! I tot .. hai.. shan't say it out.. sigh.. Pls la..=
But thanks for understanding.. Hopefully watever said is true ba.. Shall see...=)
After work went to meet barney for dinner, at 1st should be sheena and barney, but found out tt sheena got transferred so left barney lo.. haha.. Went to this eating place like a few blocks away. Never been there b4, although I'd been working for 3mths last year.. lols.. noob.. Talk as usual.. hahahazZ.. and den.. Barney.. WTH?!!! I tot .. hai.. shan't say it out.. sigh.. Pls la..=
But thanks for understanding.. Hopefully watever said is true ba.. Shall see...=)
|*Easter Sunday*|
I went for Easter Vigil Mass yesterday night (Saturday), so didn't go for mass this morning. Its only my 3rd Time attending the Vigil. I still find it quite a challenge to understand everything that is going on.. haha.. especially the beginning bah.. The 2nd time I attended I was singing in t he choir so it was quite fun. This time i was in the congragation, the whole thing was in four parts la.. It lasted 3hr 30mins. hehs.
Well, this year I felt that I did face some challenges during Holy Week, and I feel that I did reflect along with stations of the cross, with fast and abstinence. (all with understanding). On saturday the homily, I just felt Right. Prolly as long as I continue this way, I will have the strength to face my every obstacles because I know He will be with me. =)
Because He Lives, I can Face tomorrow
Because He Lives, All fear is Gone
Because I know He Holds the Future
Well, this year I felt that I did face some challenges during Holy Week, and I feel that I did reflect along with stations of the cross, with fast and abstinence. (all with understanding). On saturday the homily, I just felt Right. Prolly as long as I continue this way, I will have the strength to face my every obstacles because I know He will be with me. =)
Because He Lives, I can Face tomorrow
Because He Lives, All fear is Gone
Because I know He Holds the Future
Friday, April 06, 2007
|*6th April'07*|
Had dinner with my colleague Maby just now. Heard some stuff which I wasn't aware off. Quite funny and well.. surprising..-_^.. I just feel very glad that my 1st job is in this company. My colleagues are easy to talk to, well most of them. We just have to do our job properly that's all, serve the customers well, etc. There'll be fun and laughter if Boss and Manager are not stress.. haha..
On Monday, I was finally scheduled to work after like 3 months break. I was missed out in March prolly because the manager didn't take note of my mail.. =.=" Nvm tt. That day maby updated me about what's in the store and the stocks etc. den cal he updated me with things irrelevant to the store.. I'm kinda surprised that he told me those things la.. anywayz everyone was listening too. Some things just surprised me whereas others are really funny. Then there's this guy, who used to work there too, came and spoke to maby and I. When he heard my name he was like "Ooh, so U're Rebecca. I see, they spoke about you." I was like What?!! As in during their like trekking trip or what you know..
For 1 thing I really can't believe 'that' was true. Last time when boss or my other colleague tole me I think they're just joking/teasing me. But now tt's irrelevant already, but just now maby told me something, which is a few days b4 I return back to work. I didn't bother about it also. Actually I just don't believe it, but till now I think I believe them la. haha.. I'm just flattered. =)
On Monday, I was finally scheduled to work after like 3 months break. I was missed out in March prolly because the manager didn't take note of my mail.. =.=" Nvm tt. That day maby updated me about what's in the store and the stocks etc. den cal he updated me with things irrelevant to the store.. I'm kinda surprised that he told me those things la.. anywayz everyone was listening too. Some things just surprised me whereas others are really funny. Then there's this guy, who used to work there too, came and spoke to maby and I. When he heard my name he was like "Ooh, so U're Rebecca. I see, they spoke about you." I was like What?!! As in during their like trekking trip or what you know..
For 1 thing I really can't believe 'that' was true. Last time when boss or my other colleague tole me I think they're just joking/teasing me. But now tt's irrelevant already, but just now maby told me something, which is a few days b4 I return back to work. I didn't bother about it also. Actually I just don't believe it, but till now I think I believe them la. haha.. I'm just flattered. =)
Good Friday
If its for the sake of it instead of honest intentions, then its just pointless.
The Crosses I carry are largely the products of my daily life. I accept, and I know You will accompany me through.
I am Weak. Help me to curb my tongue and hold my anger.
Shan off the longing for pride, and glory, make me poor in Spirit but rich in You.
The Crosses I carry are largely the products of my daily life. I accept, and I know You will accompany me through.
I am Weak. Help me to curb my tongue and hold my anger.
Shan off the longing for pride, and glory, make me poor in Spirit but rich in You.
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
|*4th April'07*|
My Timetable is finally released, and you know what? I've changed class. Dang~ P02, I'm gonna hafta mixed with those people and the timings are just crap. Life of a P02 student ain't that nice huh. Some said its pay back time. Maybe... Dang! Last semester in school, and this is far the most difficult timetable to memorise and the most inconsistent timetable I've gotten. I have like Odd and Even week thingy on 3 days, and den there's this 4 freaking hours breaking right smack in the middle, in which I start school at 8am den the next class at 2pm. I'm like wth?! and class ends at 5pm..=.=" Plus no class on alternate thursday. Well good and bad, I'll know soon. And finally, I'm going to multiple places, no longer at LSCT block for the whole week.. hahaha.. but hmm.. got class at block 50...level 6 somemore.. hmm..=\
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
|*3rd April' 07*|
I'm really damn sick of it already. I'm trying to be humble but yet I think I just made myself being covered up instead. It has been so many years, and I thought I can maybe gain some achievement in Poly but yet again, I'm just on the sideline. There are Chances, but its not given to me. At 1st I just dun1 to complain, I'm just close 1 eye, but den more chances and still the same. So do I voice out or not. If I do pple will say I'm just trying to fight with them, I'll just be continued to be sidelined.
My voice lacked style and I tend to sound choral, and I produce the sounds wrongly. Usually due to nervousness and I'm just said to be not able to sing correctly. I'm just confused, its not I CANNOT, I'm just NOT CLEAR of how. Then I can't sing the solo part coz I blend with the crowd so it does automatically put me into an ensemble and no chance for solo. Fine. and den some1 who can't blend properly usually gets the solo coz he/she has style in the voice. Does it mean that I cannot, ever, fullstop. just like tt?
Then I'm poor in improvision on the piano. Does that say that I'm not good enough to be an accompanist? So I'm one of the pianist who can play but just not very flexible, well maybe I'm just not used to it? Haven taken lessons for too long and just not up to standard. So does that make me Unable to play? Not good enough? so I'm just automatically shan off? Yea I'm not as gud. Fine. I admit, but does it mean no chance at all? No good equal No chance? So many damn years and still stuck just like now and nvr ever able to impress pple. what does it mean? I'm just Not fit to be a Musician? Or I should quit performing arts totally coz There's just no hope for me at all?
Might as well ask me to quit on myself totally.
Yea I definately sound Unhappy. I AM. Its just damn Unfair. I lack confidence, I dun dare to say I can, den I end up like this, Hell so no one ever see potential and Hope in me is it. (I'm thankful to those who have.) Then why the hell am I still performing for. I know u're good but U dun haf to look down on me. Damn it.
My voice lacked style and I tend to sound choral, and I produce the sounds wrongly. Usually due to nervousness and I'm just said to be not able to sing correctly. I'm just confused, its not I CANNOT, I'm just NOT CLEAR of how. Then I can't sing the solo part coz I blend with the crowd so it does automatically put me into an ensemble and no chance for solo. Fine. and den some1 who can't blend properly usually gets the solo coz he/she has style in the voice. Does it mean that I cannot, ever, fullstop. just like tt?
Then I'm poor in improvision on the piano. Does that say that I'm not good enough to be an accompanist? So I'm one of the pianist who can play but just not very flexible, well maybe I'm just not used to it? Haven taken lessons for too long and just not up to standard. So does that make me Unable to play? Not good enough? so I'm just automatically shan off? Yea I'm not as gud. Fine. I admit, but does it mean no chance at all? No good equal No chance? So many damn years and still stuck just like now and nvr ever able to impress pple. what does it mean? I'm just Not fit to be a Musician? Or I should quit performing arts totally coz There's just no hope for me at all?
Might as well ask me to quit on myself totally.
Yea I definately sound Unhappy. I AM. Its just damn Unfair. I lack confidence, I dun dare to say I can, den I end up like this, Hell so no one ever see potential and Hope in me is it. (I'm thankful to those who have.) Then why the hell am I still performing for. I know u're good but U dun haf to look down on me. Damn it.
|*2nd April' 07*|
Why am I caught in this situation again? Why in this position again? Its very "can ku" lehs.. I want to help but somehow I just Dunno How? dunno how to approach, dunno where to start. Afraid to make any mistake, afraid to be stress rather than relieve. Just looking at what's in front of me.. its just so uncomfortable.. Can somebody help me?? Sigh.... its just to uncomfortable....
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